WOAH, what a year! As I sit here, sipping my coffee, I cant help but smile and laugh to myself at the same time. 2017 has been a pretty interesting year for me.. I like to think of it as a transition year..
I started the year off with the intent of doing my very own Happiness Project. Each month I would set a goal/resolution/intention and then “tackle” that goal or whatever you want to call it. After 2 or 3 months I quit! It wasn’t making me feel happy at all, if anything I was kind of miserable and felt like I was putting all this pressure on myself to be happy.
So, I quit my happiness project and then shit went a little sideways… Because I failed at being happy I started to think about my life, how I wasn’t where I “should” be and then started to question every aspect of my life.. Just to give you an example (1 out of about 1000 lol).. I decided that I should buy a condo in the burbs.. I started looking at condos, then just as quikly I talked myself out of it because it was like what if I hate the burbs.. So then I found a place to rent but the second I signed the lease I started to second guess if it was the right decision.. this is literally how I spent the next 4 months!
If I had to choose 1 word to describe those 4 months it would be LOST.. I was totally lost and didn’t know what I wanted.
I am the first one to admit that my mind is my biggest enemy and I knew that I had to do something because I was on a path of self-destruction.. So in September I made the decision to smarten the FUCK up and take control of my mind. I read “The Universe has your back” and started to have all of these “ahhh” moments. Everything in the book is common sense.. however for me it was not common practise.. Reading the book made me aware of my actions and now because I am aware I can stop myself before I act or react to certain situations. It doesn’t always work but hey at least I am trying!
So, for the past four months that is what it has been all about.. Learning to control my thoughts and actions. At the end of the day the only thing we can control is ourselves..
Going into 2018 I don’t have a BIG list of resolutions or goals.. my one intention for the year and for the rest of my years is to get out of my comfort zone.. and for me that means to let go of all that pressure I put on myself, to LET IT BE and to Trust that the Universe has my back…
May your 2018 be filled with everything your heart desires..
xo – josiphine